So I walked up to my friend’s door, not quite ready to walk into a big party; sad because another seemingly more fun plan had just been cancelled. “Got to smile, got to try and have fun”, I told myself as I stood in front of the big door, my hand reaching for the doorbell. The bell rang, and on cue, the door opened.
It’s funny how some of the biggest and most defining moments in your life come absolutely unannounced. Poor me had no idea what lay on the other side of the door.
Mohona, a friend, was behind the door in the company of a female I did not recognize from before. “Be polite and say hi”, went my brain; “won’t you introduce us, Mohona?” went her voice. Customary hugs and hellos were to follow. That formality done, my party begun.
An unbelievably important moment had just passed; not to be realized for another year and a half.
Sometimes she says the most adorable things, and I have to make sure my heart doesn’t miss too many beats. Sometimes she does the most painstakingly heartwarming things, and I have to remind myself to breathe. And sometimes she does nothing, and even in doing nothing, I still find myself lost in thought; wondering how much good I must have done to warrant her.
It’s funny how some of the biggest and most defining moments in your life come absolutely unannounced. Poor me had no idea what lay on the other side of the door.
Mohona, a friend, was behind the door in the company of a female I did not recognize from before. “Be polite and say hi”, went my brain; “won’t you introduce us, Mohona?” went her voice. Customary hugs and hellos were to follow. That formality done, my party begun.
An unbelievably important moment had just passed; not to be realized for another year and a half.
A year and a half went by, and a friendship grew. A friendship complex, because I struggled to cope with the undercurrents which accompanied the small talk. Do I like her? Does she like me? And just like most other complexities in my life, this one too got brushed under the carpet. I didn’t have to deal with it if I chose not to see it.
“I probably would have asked her out if she was in the city”, said I to my friends. “Probably? Try ‘definitely’, kid”, my brain kept telling me. My brain saw right through the “massive soft spot” I had for her.
But just like a good friend once said, “you can’t stop a good thing from happening”, in May of 2011, “the inevitable” did what all inevitables do - finally happened!
And it’s been wonderful since.
On exactly this day, last month, we got together, and on this one month anniversary, all I want to do is tell her that I love her and that she means the world to me. That every little word and every little thought of her’s carry so much meaning for me. That I’m ever so grateful that I went to that party and I’m ever so grateful that we got to be friends. That I thank the universe every day for bringing her into my life, and that every day is like a memory worth preserving for a lifetime. That I promise no end of obstacles will do little to stand in our way, ‘coz this is how I want it to be.
Sometimes she says the most adorable things, and I have to make sure my heart doesn’t miss too many beats. Sometimes she does the most painstakingly heartwarming things, and I have to remind myself to breathe. And sometimes she does nothing, and even in doing nothing, I still find myself lost in thought; wondering how much good I must have done to warrant her.
And even if she thinks she’s not a karmic blessing, I’d nod and tell her she’s right just to see her smile and her eyes twinkle the way they deserve to.
It’s untrue that you only fall in love once. Each time I hear her voice, I fall in love all over again…
